come on and get me back home…

I AM SO TIRED OF OBLIVION. it is absolutely extraordinary how many people in this city seem to be living in oblivion! i mean, there are times where i really just want to pull someone aside and let them know that they arent the only humans on the earth.
i was riding on the 1 train home, and it was quite roomie compared to what the 1 train usually is during rush hour. i’m sitting, a bit squished between two women and there’s a teenage boy sitting on the opposite side of the woman to my left. he was involved with a group of teenagers on the train, mainly talking about how one of them was a ”homo” and also how “dude he keep tryan to grab mah meat yo” (or something)
fairly annoyed, i turn my music up (at this particular moment it was bob dylan. mmm love) a bit to drown them out. this boy sitting a seat away from me decides to spread his legs and basically lounge in the subway, leaning up against the woman next to me, which made her EXTREMELY uncomfortable so she has to lean into me thus causing a domino effect on the 1 train. i mutter “asshole” under my breath (i doubt he heard it. otherwise i probably would’ve gotten beat up by his little gang) and stand to exit the train.
now, i understand if someone does something unintentional. like bumping into me because they’re about to miss their stop…
but LOUNGING!? REALLY!?!? do you NOT see the 50 people in this car, all trying to get home in a good mood? do you realize you just ruined atleast 3 of those good moods? do you realize it? NO, because you dont know that other people exist in this world and that SOMETIMES they had a really bad day at school and their eyes are all puffy and red from crying because they had to relive a traumatic time from their childhood, and they simply want to get home without bursting into tears and curl up on the couch with a a bowl of rice! i know it may be news to you little subway boy, but people other than yourself matter in this world! i swear they do!

now i would like to say as i step down from my soap box, that there are infact some wonderful people in this city. and i do know that oblivion doesnt only exist in new york city. i just come in contact with more people on a daily basis here, which makes it more apparent.
at this small apparel store near 148th and broadway, the owners name is Habibi and i will occasionally go and talk with him. he sold me some super fly shoes once, and ever since then he’s been a neighborhood friend to talk with. he always reminds me to smile and keep my southern gentitlity. he has a friend in “tuscaroosma” (after about 5 minutes i realized he was trying to say tuscaloosa) who owns a store that sells harlem-esque apparel. i’m sure it goes over really well with the frat-bros.
there was a creepy creepy man staring at me on the 1 train this evening. he got off at my stop and pulled the ol’ “walk a little slower to be behind me” trick. but no! i would not fall for it. i stopped near a poh-lice man to get my keys out, and i noticed the man kindof lingered and would NOT stop staring at me. i’m not sure if he followed me on the street but i stopped in Habibi’s store just in case. and good thing too, because i found a REALLY cute skirt for $10.
i am hoping the rest of this week will be better than today. i believe i’m seeing sarah o. tomorrow and KENDRA comes monday. which means that even if this week goes down the pooper, next week will be the beginning of the rest of my life!
also i would like to say, incase anyone has forgotten…the words ”please,” ”thank you.” and ”excuse me” are apart of the english language.
SO USE THEM.